Saturday, November 21, 2009

OK, sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo Wednesday!!!!?????!!!!!

...........went in to have a lump removed from my left breast, dr walks in before surgery------but after i'm already iv'd and dressed in booties-cap-gown, etc.......and says,

"We have good and bad news! Good news...................


bad news...............we can't do the surgery!"

The first question they ask you prepping for surgery is "Have you had your tubes tied or a hysterectomy?" and that was a tricky question for me to begin with. Then the nurse made me pee in the cup because my tubes are currently open.

Then the blood draw thing.........they had to come back in and draw a second time, so you woulda' thought I would pick up on something, but NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!

Those of you who don't know..........we have been trying for 3 years for this! You can read previous posts and/or original post to catch up if'n evah ya' care to.

We had switched meds September and, well, I guess they did their job!!!

I went in Thursday for a sono and I am early----last cycle was october 22nd. He said the measurements were right on time with the calendar. Wednesday my titer (? i hope i've called/said that right) # was 1800 something and I will be going in on Sunday to do another blood draw. Then, I'll go back in on Tuesday for him to do another sono to make CERTAIN that things are where they need to be. (with the tubal and reversal chances of ectopic)

We will be watching the lump for 3-4mos and then will decide whether or not to go ahead and take it out. I have had this lump for 15 years now, I have just switched doctors. They biopsied it 15 years ago and it was nothing. It hasn't changed, it hasn't moved, it hasn't gotten more tender nor larger, it's still just there. My new surgeon dr. just wants to remove it to know what it is.?.

It's all just CRAZY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

--------we've waited sooooooooooooooooooooooo long. I had pretty much given up. My oldest daughter turned 14 this year ------so, what makes it ok for me to still be wanting a baby myself. Plus, I turned the big 4-0 last month and I just gave myself until I was 40 to keep trying and then that would be it.

Come Tuesday, when we find out for sure if it's in the right place and all, my heart will be more at ease. With my track record, I usually don't tell anyone I'm ever preggo until at least 3 sometimes 4 months. I just have a hard time with telling everyone and then if/when something happens, having to retell everyone.

My cousin and aunt and a friend were all signed on to do my anesthesia, OR nurse and recovery nurse so when I got ready to leave the hospital, my aunt says, "Ok, now what are we going to tell people? How can you walk out of here with no recovery-no stitches-no soreness? yadda yadda yadda! (Joe's family is very close here and very large!!!) She said we may as well level with them and tell the truth. THAT IS SO HARD for me so early. Annnnnnnnnnnd, it's going to be a LONG 9 months with everyone knowing so soon, too!!

Any and all prayers would be appreciated!!

I will be laying my worries at His feet because, like my husband has me trained to think, it is what it is and I can't change it. If it's meant to be He will make it!!!!

I am never in doubt with God's plans, just always amazed with His timing!!!

I DO have a sono pic but am NOT tech savvy enough to know how to scan/upload it, sorry!!

(I tell ya' if I didn't know any better, I'd think my past came straightout of a Lifetime Movie!!!)

1 comment:

kristy said...

Praying for you! How exciting!